slip away.

I wanted to post these photos and then I visited Xf's blog and it makes me feel so.. awake now.
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This doesn't matter anymore.
I only want to show the curls after I remove my hair net.


Sunday brunch.
strawberries tree. shiok


As sinful as it seems.


Zal's calendar.. so cute. My birthday falls on a Thursday this year. I think school end late, good.


8 more working days, 4 more days to end of road block.
So... the post should end here but here's something I really like.

[from Xf's blog]
Greatest lessons of Life:

• When someone lies to you, it teaches you that things are not always what they seem. The truth is often far beneath the surface. Look beyond the masks people wear if you want to know what is in their hearts. Remove your own masks to let people know who you really are.
  
  
• When someone steals from you it teaches you that nothing is forever. Always appreciate what you have. You never know when you might lose it. Never take your friends or family for granted, because today and sometimes only this very moment is the only guarantee you may have.
  
  
• When someone inflicts injury upon you, it teaches you that the human state is a very fragile one. Protect and take care of your body as best as you can, it’s the one thing that you are sure to have forever.
  
  
• When someone mocks you, it teaches you that no two people are alike. When you encounter people who are different from you, do not judge them by how they look or act, instead base it on the contents of what is in their hearts.
  
  
• When someone breaks your heart, it teaches you that loving someone does not always mean that the person will love you back. But don’t turn your back on love, because when you find the right person, the joy that one person brings you will make up for all of your past hurts. Times a thousand fold.
  
  
• When someone holds a grudge against you, it teaches you that everyone makes mistakes. When you are wronged, the most virtuous thing you can do is forgive the offender without pretense. Forgiving those who have hurt us is often the most difficult and painful of life’s experiences, but it is also the most courageous thing a person can do.
  
  
• When a loved one is unfaithful to you, it teaches you that resisting temptation is man’s greatest challenge. Be vigilant in your resistance against all temptations. By doing so, you will be rewarded with an enduring sense of satisfaction far greater than the temporary pleasure by which you were tempted.
  
  
• When someone cheats you, it teaches you that greed is the root of all evil. Aspire to make your dreams come true, no matter how lofty they may be. Do not feel guilty about your success, but never let an obsession with achieving your goals lead you to engage in malevolent activities.
  
  
• When someone ridicules you, it teaches you that nobody is perfect. Accept people for their merits and be tolerant of their flaws. Do not ever reject someone for imperfections over which they have no control.
  
  
• When someone loves us, it teaches us love, kindness, charity, honesty, humility, forgiveness, acceptance, and all of these can counteract all the evil in the world. For every good deed, there is one evil deed. Man alone has the power to control the balance between good and evil, but because the lessons of love are not taught often enough, the power is too often abused.
  
  
• When you enter someone’s life, whether by plan, chance or coincidence, consider what your lesson will be. Will you teach love or a harsh lesson of reality? When you die, will your life have resulted in more loving or more hurting? More comfort or more pain? More joy or more sadness? Each one of us has the power over the balance of the love in the world. Use it wisely!

No one ever said that life would be fair, or that the moments you wanted to last forever would. As you start to realize, people who once said that they cared can stop in an instant and those people who once made you the happiest, are now the ones who make you cry. You realize that no matter how much you care about someone, it doesn’t mean they will care about you. Letting go of something isn’t hard, it’s what you leave behind that’s the hard part. You realize that kisses don’t always mean something and promises can be broken, just as quickly as they are made.

“ Sometimes you have to be strong for yourself. You have to know that you’re a good person and a good friend. What’s meant to be will end up good and what’s not - won’t. Love is worth fighting for, but sometimes you can’t be the only one fighting. At times, people need to fight for you. If they don’t, you just have to move on and realize what you gave them was more than they were willing to give you. Hopefully, people realize great things when they come around and not lose something real. Always fight, until you can’t anymore, and then be fought for.

“ People say that the bad memories cause the most pain, but actually its the good ones that drive you insane.

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I can't go on anymore, it's not bringing me anywhere... but I am still holding on somehow. I've no idea where did I get that little bit of faith from. It's not like me..
I thought.. but apparently it isn't.
I want... but it will not happen.
I wish... but you won't.

I don't want to cry, I don't want to be weak but it's not like I can control it.. they come as and when they want, I don't have the ability to control. I won't ever have the strength to believe, again. I wish you had more flaws, wasn't nice to me, didn't change for the better, that we didn't have so much common memories cause they are like tapes of what we had. Or should I wish that we didn't love before?
I wish I knew how important you are.

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so many more and I've already said what I shouldn't say here again. twice.
sorry, sorry, sorry. I really don't mean it but I don't know where else I can vent it out or who else can I talk to.

I know I've got friends but they have got their own lives to mend and care about, I don't want to bother them. I don't want to get irritated by me. Or rather, sometimes, I don't feel like talking to a human being. I am just being repetitive.
Can anyone ever understand?

I think I should disappear.
I.need.to.stop.being.so.irritating.

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I should really consider ignoring this blog for good.
I can't stay faithful to onsugar or livejournal. How?

Hi friend, I've not seen you for a long time.
I am so afraid I'll forget how you look like.